All Things In Moderation

…….. and moderation in all things .

Dieting can be a lonely place…………

Posted by Susan on February 22, 2009

Sometimes I am just sick of being on a diet. I have been on one for almost 3 years now. Always worried about what I am eating, how much I am working out, what am I doing workout-wise, how many calories are in this and that, what are they serving at this party we are going to, or what will I be able to order at this restraunt we are going to. My mind is always trying to think a head, always trying to plan a head. I wish I didn’t think it was so important…..but I just do.

But it can be a very lonely place sometimes. There are times when I feel out of place. I am not surrounded with like-minded people. I know a lot of people who complain about their weight, TALK about doing something about it, but I don’t know anyone who actually DOES anything about it. People also feel the need to comment about your passing on goodies. They call you obsessed. They sometimes even look you over as if to say….”.well your always on a diet, but I never see you look any different”. I often wish that I could find someone who understood why it is important, who didn’t keep saying …”oh your fine, just enjoy yourself”. I would love to have someone to talk food with, to swap calorie saving ideas and workout programs with. I wish someone would just get me, and understand my goals.

Alas…..it is what it is. I am in this, committed to it. Even if nobody understands the importance of this journey, I need to make that all the more reason to suceed. My husband trys to support me, he actually does a pretty good job at it, but he still doesn’t get it. He tells me all the time that he wishes that I could be as happy with me as he is….but it all goes deeper than that. It is more about how I feel about myself, how awful I feel when I see pictures of myself, or when I have to go some place special and I am going nuts looking for something that looks halfway decent to wear. It is about feeling good in my own skin.

So yes, it is lonely right now. But I can’t help believe that in the end, when all the pieces finally fall into place, I will be glad I did it, and I will show all the people who refuse to understand and support me, and I will feel that it was all worth the trouble. I will just keep trudging along, doing all the things I know work. I believe in what I am doing, and I see all the time through blogs that it can be done….and I will do it too !
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