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My Ultimate Goal

Posted by Susan on March 31, 2009

One of my ultimate goals for this blogging adventure is to post progress pictures. I have plenty of them, I’ve been documenting this weight loss journey now for a little over 2 years. I haven’t taken any recently, I was thinking of having my husband take some this weekend. I wonder if I will ever have the courage to do it. It will be like rehashing a time in my life that I was at my most vulnerable, when I flet the lowest. But it is also a reminder of a time when I made a choice. A time when I made an important decision to commit to something and focus on it. A time that I chose to do the work that was needed to achieve a goal.

I am not at my goal yet, but I am at this momentt the closest I have ever been. I think the last time I was at my currnet weight I was in my late 20’s. When I finally reach my goal I will be around the weight I was in my early 20’s.

The thought of laying it all out there is daunting. It is also honest. I worry about judgement, not only from others , but from myself. Usually when I look at the progress pictures I get frustrated because I really can’t see a whole heck of a lot of difference. My husband says he can, but sometimes I think he is seeing me with eyses of love instead of eyes of brutal honesty. I am unsure I could handle that kind of honesty anyway !

One day I hope to dig down deep inside myself and find the guts it takes to post pictures, and see my progress for what it is, and be proud of it. For now I think I will hold on to the pictures a little longer.

Anyway, today I did well. I feel a little PMSie in the mood and bloat department. Thankfully , my food has been fine, no crazy cravings or uncontrolable hunger. I did cardio today: 30 min. spin bike, and 30 min. elliptical.

I can’t beleve tomorrow is already mid-week ! This week is whizzing by !

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2 Responses to “My Ultimate Goal”

  1. Nancy said

    Susan,
    You are so sweet for the kind comments you left. I want to say how much I admire you for your dedication to making your goal. First of all, you are doing it with such common sense. I don’t know how many times I cringe when I see an advertisement for a weight loss program that promises drastic weight loss in just days. Not only is that unrealistic, it’s unhealthy. You are doing it the healthy way and I think by blogging your journey, it’ll be inspiration for others to follow a healthy weight loss program, too. Yay you! You are doing such a great job…keep it up! Hugs, Nancy

  2. Jen, a priorfatgirl said

    being vulnerable takes a lot of emotion doesn’t it?

    Sometimes, its not so much being vulnerable to other people but to ourselves that is the hardest.

    Posting pictures has to be done in your own time, when your ready. You’ve been on this journey now for two years, so you more then anyone, know that everything has a reason and a time! When I read your post today, I immediatly thought of a quote from the book I’m reading for school…

    What you bring forth out of yourself from the inside will save you. What you do not bring forth out of yourself from the inside will destroy you ~ St. Thomas

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