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Archive for June, 2009

Happy Father’s Day : My First "Maintenance" Social Event

Posted by Susan on June 21, 2009

Ok, today we are celebrating Father’s Day with Matt’s dad. We are going over there about 2:00pm. There will be a lot of food there and I will have to navagate my way around it and still enjoy myself. My ultimate goal with this whole maintenance thing is to keep my weight under control and still live my life…….and social gatherings involving food are definately part of life ! So I am planning as best I can, even though the food is out of my control pretty much.

I got up this morning and worked out. I ate a very lite breakfast and snack. I am not sure what is being served but I am thinking it will be a BBQ type of thing. I am just going to eat what I want in reasonable portions !!!! If I am up a pound or two tomorrow……so be it ! I will lighten up on calories for a few days. It is no big deal. This is a great way for me to figure my way around these situations ! I am not stressed over it, and I am not going to go into a depression tomorrow if I pay for it a little on the scale. I need to learn to let go a little. As long as I am mindful, I will be fine !

Anyway , I hope everyone has a great Sunday and I will be sure to report back tomorrow about my “adventure in social maintenance ” tomorrow ! Wish me luck !

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Weekly Weigh In :

Posted by Susan on June 20, 2009

This morning I weighed in (as you can see) at 138.6 lbs. That marks 3 weeks of sucessfully maintaining my goal weight ! Yay!
I think that , after much agonizing ,I have finally come up with the “magic number” in terms of calorie intake. I think that I am best off keeping it to the 1800 calorie range. I can go higher and lower as I need to according to socail plans that come up, but higher being no higher than 2000 if at all possible.
Tomorrow I am going to my FIL’s for Father’s Day. I am not sure what will be served food-wise, but I plan on eating light and working out before we go so that I am able to be a little more flexible and not be the odd man out. This particular part of the family ( Matt’s dad and his stepmother) are not very tolerant of my dieting. They make a big deal when I say no to certain foods, do a lot of eye rolling, and make comments. They haven’t seen me since Christmas , and am at least 40 lbs. lighter since then. I am sure they are going to be even more relentless with comments and watching everything I put in my mouth. I plan on eating what is served in reasonalbe portions and not listen to what anyone has to say.
Does anyone one else get that? Family members know you are watching what you eat, dieting , or see that you have lost weight , and then eye ball everything you eat and drink, sometimes asking, “your not going to eat all that are you?”. It is like they feel they have the right to monitor you. I think for the most part they do it in the spirit of well meaning……. but I must be honest, it really burns me !
I try to ignore it. When I was restrictive dieting, and refused things that were served in the past , and my body never changed, I used to imagine that they were saying after I left….. “for all the dieting she does, she never gets any thinner !”
I am sure that I am going to hear what I have been hearing lately, the new comment……”don’t lose anymore ! Maybe your too skinny!”. I feel like I need to defend myself , to make an official announcement to all friends and family……. ” THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR CONCERN , BUT I AM AT THIS MOMENT AT A HEATHY WEIGHT FOR MY HEIGHT !!!!”
Anyway, I will just endure it. I know what’s what and I am keeping track myself , and don’t need their help thank you very much ! (ha! ha!)
Well, I just got done working out and I need to get started. I have a To Do List a mile long . I am also hoping to put up a progress pic this weekend. The last one I posted was 149 lbs. I never posted anything for my goal weight. So much to do in so little time !!!!!! Have a great day !

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A Sigh Of Relief !!!!! Ahhhh!!!

Posted by Susan on June 19, 2009

Thank heaven’s it is FRIDAY !!!! This week has been rough , but now it is over and I am sooo glad ! I am ready to head into a new week , (after a nice relaxing weekend) with a better attitude and less negativity……….. I did much too much whining last week and for that I am really sorry. Was it the weather? The constant dark rainy days with no sunshine? Was it hormones kicking up a fuss? Or was I just being a big old baby ? (Yeah that’s it !)

Anyway , I am feeling hopeful and looking forward to an early bedtime, and an early start to my day tomorrow. I think I just may have found my “magic number”. By that I mean I think I’ve found the calorie number that will keep my weight steady. I will know better tomorrow when I do my weekly weigh in.

I have been doing a lot of thinking about the whole weight loss thing. I used to think I had it all figured out. The best way to lose the weight. But what I am realizing is I only figured out the best way for ME ! There is no perfect way. No “one size fits all” solution. We are all so unique, our bodies so complex and individual. What works for me may not be the answer for everyone else. I believe all diet plans work, as long as it is something that fits into your lifestyle, and as long as you are consistant. The same goes for exercise programs.

Maintaining, I am realizing is kind of the same. I need to follow a path that works for me. I need to relax , and stop all the needless drama. Just as I found what worked for me to lose the weight in the first place, I will find what works for me in this phase of journey as well.

I never expected the emotional stuff that goes with this phase. I never expected to feel so out of control. But I need to be rational about this. I am not going on mindless binges, like I have in the past. I am not stuffing myself with baked goods and candy. I am just upping my calories a few hundred here and there. I am not going to step on the scale tomorrow and see that the extra 1/2 a rice cake I just ate caused me to regain all the weight I lost.

I am tired of thinking about it all the time. I’d originally said that I wanted to maintain my weight , and life my life at the same time. I am going to try to focus on that instead of the daily scale number.

So I have a full day planned for tomorrow so I am off to bed ! Hope everyone has a great Friday !

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So Glad The Week I Coming To A Close !

Posted by Susan on June 18, 2009

This week , especially today, has been crap with a capitol “C” ! I am so glad to see it come to an end ! I am still maintaing my weight (thankfully), but my stress about it is always under the surface.

It has been raining for what seems like weeks here is my area of Connecticut, and the weather I have noticed has a lot to do with my mood. The dark rainy days make me feel blah ! Work is frustrating, and I can’t wait for it to be done for the week !

I got home from work today only to find that our power was out. That means no cooking and no shower. It just came on about 15 mins. ago so I am off to shower now , but my dinner ended up being PB &J because everything else needed to be heated. Grrrr ! I really hate when my routine is off , but tonight it was out of my control, unfortunately.

Oh well. Hopefully better days are ahead, and this funk I’ve been in all week will lift and I will feel positive again. I really hope so because I can’t stand to be around myself when I am like this. I feel so ungratful, because I know I have a lot to be thankful for . I guess I am learning that losing weight and reaching your goal does not mean that those sometimes negative feelings and bad moods disappear. I am still me , just with a smaller outside.

I bet tomorrow at 3:30 pm (quitting time) I will be singing a different tune ! I have the weekend to look forward to at least !!!!

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A Better Day

Posted by Susan on June 16, 2009

This morning I weighed myself , and I was the same thing I was on Monday……138.8lbs. I’ll take it ! I had a really good workout this morning , after a good night’s sleep last night so it definately helped set the tone for a better day !

I used to resent the fact that I had to run my butt off all day at work, but now I see it as a blessing. Weight loss and weight maintaining would be a lot more difficult if I sat at a desk all day. I now see work as exercise. It not only helps my periodical panic attacks about calorie counts and scale readings, I am sure it makes me a lot easier to work with ! So it is a win/win.

I joined a challenge on priorfatgirl.com. You are supposed to set a goal to be reached by August 1st., set a reward for yourself , and if the goal is not reached by Aug. 1st, commit to sending $50 to a charity of your choice.

I set a goal of maintining my goal weight within 2 lbs. over or under 140 lbs. I chose a new bike as my reward for meeting the challenge, and a donation to the American Cancer Society if I do not meet my goal.

I REALLY want a bike. I see all you guys enjoying yours and I am sooo jealous !!!! What a fun way to get some exercise ! My husband has one already and I’ve already picked mine out ! I am making myself wait until August 1st though ! It is good incentive to reach my goal , knowing there is a nice prize waiting for me at the end of it !

I haven’t got much to say tonight, so I will make this short and sweet ! Off to bed so I can have another good workout tomorrow !

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Just Another Manic Monday……..

Posted by Susan on June 15, 2009

You have no idea how much I hate them ! The weekends are so wonderful ( but busy !) ! I get a lot done, I have time to relax, I have my meals on the deck, I have time to read, and have movie night. Then around 5ish on Sunday I start to feel sad……..I hate when they end ! The only good thing is another is only 5 short days away.

Mondays are always hairy for me, and this Monday was no exception ! I can never get into the swing of things on the first morning back to work and I am usually rushing out the door. This morning was even more annoying than usual because I forgot my tea on the kitchen counter and left without it. By the time I noticed it I was way too far from home or I would have gone back. I look forward to my tea drinking ride to work !

But I made it through the day ! I am off to bed early tonight because I felt like I didn’t sleep last night, even though my husband informed me that it stormed all night long and I don’t remember a thing. I just woke up feeling like I didn’t get any rest ! I hate that.

As usual I am stressed about my eating, worried about the calories I upped and hoping that tomorrow the scale is nice to me. I really need to get a hold of myself. I was never ever like this when I was dieting. Yes, I would worry a little about my weigh in, but nothing like this. I keep telling myself it is only week 3 , and in time I will relax a little. But the idea of sliding back into the old me is so scarey to me ! I hope this gets better or I will end up in a straight jacket over a few hundred calories ! This seems to be the theme for me on Mondays . I am always afraid on Mondays…….afraid of weight gain.

It may have something to do with the fact that this is the first time I’ve sat down since 2:45 this morning……I think I am a little burnt at this point ! Tomorrow will be better. I think it is best that I climb into bed and sleep this day off and start fresh in the morning ! I am sure my whining is getting old ! I know I am sick of it !!!!!!

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Monumental Decision

Posted by Susan on June 14, 2009

Two weeks from this Thursday (July 2nd) I am going to do something that in January of this year I vowed I would do. I wasn’t sure I would make it to this point , but since I have it is time to make good on this promise.

I lived in a lake community, and part of our yearly fees includes beach rights to the community beach. I’ve lived here for 2 years this July 2nd and since I’ve lived here I’ve never used the beach. I’ve gone down there in the evenings with my niece or visiting family to swim but always sat on the shore in sweats and a t-shirt, I’ve never been down there in a swimsuit, and never ventured down there alone , and not during the day.

I’ve decided that on that date I will do it ! I am going to pack up my book, some lunch, and put on my swimsuit and go down to the beach to spend the day ! I’ve been putting it off long enough ! Making a million excuses, and now it is time to just do it !

I am going to ignore my loose skin, my stretch marks, not to mention the left over cellulite on the back of my upper thighs, and just bite the bullet ! I look better than I ever have and although that does not mean perfect, I am smart enough to understand that there really is no “perfect”. I am normal, I am just like everyone else. I need to face this fear once and for all so that I can enjoy my summers and my home ……. Lord knows we pay enough for the privilege so I may as well take advantge of it ! Plus I love the lake, I love sitting by it on the sand, I love swimming, it was one of the reasons I was excited to move here in the first place.

I need to do this. Just break the ice and get over it ! So I’ve marked it on my calendar , no more excuses. This was one of the first things on my “Things to do when I get skinny” list and I am not letting this summer, another summer, pass me by.

So pray for nice weather on the 2nd of July…………….. I’ll keep you posted !

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Mission Accomplished

Posted by Susan on June 14, 2009

Ok, I did it ! I ate my 2000 calories yesterday. Inspite of my paniced workout, and this morning I weighed in at 137.8. So I am holding steady.

I was up at 5:30am this morning, and it was pouring rain ! So since I was exhausted, and the rain had pretty much canceled out our Sunday hike………….I went back to bed. Until 9:00 am !!!!!!! That is so unlike me ! I am up at 5:30 am on weekends. I love it because it it gives me a longer day off. The thought of sleeping a day away feels like a waste to me. I was kind of bummed that I slept so late, but I guess my body needed it.

Once I got up I had to get my cooking done for the week ( turkey meatloaf, spinach mozzarella bake, and Diet Coke cupcakes) and pack lunches for myself and my husband for tomorrow. Now I am just relaxing for a bit.

I kind of want to workout, but I need at least one rest day a week. I want to get to bed early tonight and get a good night’s sleep to start my week off right. I have everything done and ready for the week and that feels good ! I am going to go have a cup of tea and a snack…………have a great Sunday everyone !!! And a great coming week !

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Posted by Susan on June 13, 2009

It’s official ! I am definately out of my mind ! This maintenance thing is really messing with my head !!!!

I’ve committed myself today to getting 2000 calories in. I have it all planned out so I know exactly what I am eating. At about 2:00pm I am thinking about the snack I have planned for 3pm and out of nowhere I felt compelled to workout. I was begining to panic about the extra calories!!!!

I went downstairs and did 30 min. SS cardio on the spin bike, and 30 min. on the elliptical. Today was supposed to be my schedualed rest day, because tomorrow we are hiking , as we do every Sunday. Well, I just had to get in an hour of exercise because I am really scared of this 2000 calorie thing !

Maintaining is such a roller coaster. One minute I am secure , the next minute I am terrified. I know it is only the second week of it, but will it ever get easier? Will I ever feel secure ? Like I actually know what I am doing ?

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Weekly Weigh In : 137.6 lbs.

Posted by Susan on June 13, 2009

My weigh in today has me confused. I never thought I would say this but I am still losing and that has me a little concerned. This morning I weighed in at 137.6. Not that I don’t like this number, because I do ! I just need to stop losing now.

I am 5’9″ tall . I had no intention of going into the 130’s at all. I must say I am liking the fact that I am begining to see some muscle definition due to the fact that there is a lot less fat covering the mucle now. But I do beleive there is such a thing as too skinny!

Wow ! I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be worried about a weigh in that is too low ! All these years of worrying about how high the number on the scale was………now I am stressing over how low it is ???

I had a long talk the other day with the dietitian at work. (you remember, the one I never listened to?) I wanted to thank her for the great advice she gave me last year. We got to talking about how to maintain. She told me she beleives I should be eating at least 2000 calories a day ! What ???? I almost fell off my chair ! That seems like such a high number !!! As it is , it has been really hard this week trying to eat 1700-1800. She explained that with the circuit training /HIIT that I do plus my very active job, I need to eat more. She said that if I cut back on the exercise I would need less.

Well, I love my workouts. They are quick, easy , and for me , the workouts have become a mental thing. They help me keep my head at work, they help keep my mood steady and they help tremendously in the management of stress. I do not want to cut them back.

This week I will experiment with the 2000 calorie thing, because I don’t want to lose anymore weight , I just want to stay right where I am. I just need to get over that paranoid feeling as I see the total number of calories climb higher !

The most difficult thing about maintaining is switching my mind out of diet mode ! I have been on some kind of diet for what seems like my entire life on and off. Turning it off , I am finding, is is extrememly hard ! I worry that I will slip back into bad habits, I worry that if I get out of the “zone” I will end up right back where I began.

I will make an effort to get myself up to 2000 calories this week. I need to experiment with it and see what happens at the end of the week next week.

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