All Things In Moderation

…….. and moderation in all things .

About

Bogg pics #41Welcome ! My name is Susan and I am a former fat girl and recovering binge eater. About 8 years ago I started packing on the pounds. The higher the number on the scale climbed, the more frustrated I got and the more I ate.

I was in a vicious cycle. Depriving myself all week (with no exercise at first) , and eating uncontrollably all weekend. Every Monday found me sick as a dog and swearing to myself it would never happen again. But as soon as Friday night rolled around, I felt deserving of a “treat” , and the entire weekend would go down hill from there ! My all time highest weight was 210 lbs. in 2005.

In 2006 I got engaged and vowed I would not walk down the aisle looking like I did. I decided to take action. I dieted and did countless hours of cardio. Mostly on the elliptical trainer and walking. Some weight came off, but because I was the “Cardio Queen” and never incorporated any strength training . The number on the scale moved (slowly) down , but my body didn’t change. I was just a smaller version of the same fat girl.

After I got married life changed abruptly. We had sold my condo home weeks before the wedding and ended up having to live with my mother in law until the house we bought was ready. This threw my dieting efforts into a tail spin. I was living out of a suitcase, my life was in storage until we moved and I used the whole situation as an excuse to slack off !

Then came the move, the unpacking, the getting settled, the new routine. Once I’d gotten hold of myself and decided I was miserable at the weight I was, I had gained back 20 of the pounds lost pre wedding.

That misery lead me to a year of searching. I tried every diet, every way of eating. I was constantly experimenting. The problem with that was that I never stuck with any one thing long enough to get any results ! I was literally running in circles, looking for the next popular trend, hoping and praying it would be the right fit for me.

In January of this year, I made a promise to myself that I would do some research, pick one program and stick to it ! I found a program called Turbulence Training , and bought it on New Years Eve. It was circuit training combined with intervals instead of steady state cardio. Little did I know when I bought this E book, that it would be my perfect fit.

I also came to some other realizations at the beginning of 2009. I asked myself what I really wanted. I didn’t want to be a triathlete, or a marathon runner. I didn’t want to be a figure competitor. (these were some of the things I dabbled in during my experimental stage ) I wanted to burn fat, I wanted to wear cute clothes, and I wanted to live my life ! I wanted to eat dessert every night , I wanted to have a glass of wine and go out to eat now and then with my husband or my friends . I wanted to learn to eat like everyone else. I needed to teach myself moderation. That was the only way I would ever be able to sustain weight loss……… if I ever got there !

Fast forward to June 2009 …….. I did it! Since my heaviest weight of all time (210lbs.) , I’d lost 70 lbs. !!!! After months of working out every day, and counting the calories of every single thing I put in my mouth, I was at an all time low of 140 lbs. ! I was so excited, but at the same time, scared to death ! I was here, now how did I stay here ? How would I live my life , and still hold on to all the progress I’d made ?

This Blog is chronicles my life as I try to hold on to my hard earned weight loss, and still live like a normal human being. It is about the honest ups and downs that come with this stage of the journey. Because as we all know, the battle of the bulge does not end when you reach that magic number and are finally wearing a size 6 jeans !

I don’t believe in deprivation, because for me that leads to binge behavior………if I can’t have it , I will end up eating copious amounts of it sooner or later. I don’t believe in cutting out any certain food groups, and I cannot live without dessert every single night ! I try to balance good whole foods with some not so good foods. I have resigned myself to the fact that exercise 6-7 days a week is a MUST if I want to keep this weight off, and I just do it without question.

I’ve maintained my weight for a little over 3 months so far .

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3 Responses to “About”

  1. Beth said

    Susan,

    Thank you so much for the encouraging words on my blog. I’m excited about my success yesterday. What I love about your history is that you refuse to give everything up, because that leads to binging. That is the theme of my journey…having enough to be satisfied, so that I don’t binge. I was never a binger as a child, I didn’t become one till I started to diet to lose weight that I didn’t (at the time) need to lose.

  2. Mishy said

    i’m so glad i found your blog, i really enjoy following it. can i ask you how tall you are? i think you look great. keep up the good work!

  3. Susan said

    Mishy,

    I’m 5’9″ . Thanks for taking the time to read my blog 🙂

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