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Unfounded Fears and a Good Night’s Sleep !

Posted by Susan on June 9, 2009

I am happy to report that the scale this morning showed that I am still right on target. (139.4 lbs.) My little panic yesterday turned out to be unnecessary. I guess I am going to have to deal with my fears for a while , until I get myself to a point where I am comfortable with maintaining my weight. My logic hasn’t caught up to my emeotions as of yet. I hope it gets better, but what do I expect ? It is only mid way through week 2.

Today at work a friend (who had Gastric Bypass 3 years ago , and who is has had trouble with weight gain lately) came to me in tears. It seems that 2 of the girls from another dept. called her out on her recent weight gain. They told her she was gaining weight, and that she needs to watch herself before it gets out of hand and she gains back all the weight she lost ! I felt horrible for her (I’ve been the recipient of such criticism before) and tried my best to console her. In her state of upset, she even told me that when I start gaining back the weight I lost ( NO HAPPENING !) , see how I feel !

Anyway that is not what this post is about. The question I have is, why is it that people feel the need to offer their opinions when you don’t ask for it ?! Especially when it comes to weight ! I don’t get it. Is it that people just don’t think before they open their mouths? Or is it that people are that thoughtless and unfeeling? Since I understand the emotional pain that goes with weight, I would never ever think to mention to someone that they are gaining . Even if it is meant as help………….it really isn’t any help at all !

Honestly you can’t win anyway ! I got the comments on my weight when I was fat, and now I get them now that I am not ! Someone today asked me if I’d lost weight, when I said yes I did, they started with the “don’t you think your a bit too thin?”stuff !

I would love to go on and on about not caring what others thing, but I am not that evolved yet ! Weight loss doesn’t instanly make insecurities go away. I still have a ton of work to do on myself in that direction. All I know is that when your feeling badlt about how you look, you don’t need anyone to remind you of what you already know !

Ok, enough ranting for one night. I promised myself that tonight would be a full 8 hours of sleep, so I best get cracking ! The late nights of vacation on definately messed my sleeping patterns up. Have a great tomorrow everyone !

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Awful Day

Posted by Susan on April 10, 2009

Today has been one of the worst (work) days I’ve had in a really long time. I am so glad to be home and safe. I am also glad I get a few days to get past it all and hopefully feel better about it all. Feeling totally helpless stinks in any situation. I guess I need to accept what is and move on. A good night’s sleep will help me gain some perspective.

The good new is that instead of eating away the frustration and pain, for some reason I feel the total opposite. My upset has caused my appetite to pretty much disappear. I ate dinner because my body needed it after a hard day, but not because I was actually hungry for it. I skipped my nightly sweet because I just don’t want it tonight. I was so antsy when I got home that I cleaned the house……………… less to do tomorrow. I am considering doing some cardio tomorrow morning just to constructively work soe of these feeling out of my body.

Wow ! A totally different reaction than I usually have. I would normally be out looking for the biggest , fugiest chocolate cake I could find to drown my sorrows in. I guess, things have shifted in the emotional eating department. That is good news at least.

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