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Don’t Over Think It !

Posted by Susan on May 6, 2009

I’ve been thinking a lot about motivation when it comes to working out . In many of the blogs I read , people find daily exercise routines a struggle . It is understandable when you consider the reality of it all . In order to keep up the body you are and have been working so hard to get , you have to commit to this lifestyle for life ! That sounds so daunting sometimes .
I have to honestly say that I do not love working out , but I do love how it makes me feel and what it does for my body and how it makes my body look . I think that my actual workout program that keeps me excited . I do a program called Turbulence Training and I love it ! It is fast paced , and time efficient and has totally changed the way I think about exercise . ( I plan a blog post on it tomorrow )
I also am in the habit of working out first thing in the morning . For me , it gets me in and out and done . I don’t have to worry about it for the rest of the day . I have my alarm on the other side of my bedroom so I have to get up in order to turn it off. Then I go straight into the bathroom where I have my clothes set out and waiting for me . I brush my teeth , get dressed and go straight downstairs to my exercise room and get to it . I am very fortunate to have a little mini gym in my basement. If I had to drap myself to the gym I am not sure how I would do it !
I have accumulated a lot of equipment over the years . I have a decent sized room downstairs that houses the equipment and my TV / DVD player . I workout while watching VH1 reality show crap , and it is one of my favorite times of the day . Of course at first I am a little sleepy , but after about 15 mins. I am warmed up and feel great .
I think the most important thing about working out is not to over think it . If your anything like me at all, you can think of enough excuses to not workout at all given enough time to do so. If I do it first thing , I don’t have time to think. At this point I feel like working out is just a habit. I wuldn’t start the day without brushing my teeth, I wouldn’t think of just skipping work for a few weeks , and I workout in one way or another everyday .
To me , this is a small price to pay . It is my insurance policy . I never , ever want to be a fat chick again . THAT is what I hated ! I will continue to do it for that reason alone !

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Sunday Morning

Posted by Susan on April 19, 2009

This morning I decided to try on some clothes that my sister left at my house because she didn’t have room for them at her house. I could never even attempt to try her clothes on….she is tall like me but tiny. She is usually a size 6. The clothes above are both size 6. I tried the dress on this past winter and could not even get it past the tops of my thighs. Today I got it on and got it zipped…….and aside for some slight snugness… fit ! The Tuxedo suit I absolutely love . It size 6 both pieces. To my huge surprise the pants fit ! The jacket did too !!!!! I actually fit into a size 6 !!!! I am 5’9″ remember……I do not ever remember wearing that size, it think I was an 8 in high school !!!
I am so amazed I cannot even put it into words. I love clothes, always have, but I have’t bought anything but nesessities in years ! I am so excited to get down to my second weight loss goal so I can do some major damage in the stores !
This morning’s little try on sessiongave me all the more motivated to make this week count ! I will be working hard and eating well . Today I will be cooking for the week and getting myself ready to start of a new week. I think that I will try on some of my summer stuff today to see what I have a, and what I need. I am so excited ! This is just the motivation I need!

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Could I Be Any Happier ????

Posted by Susan on April 5, 2009

I am begining this new week with so much hope and happiness. I can’t believe that I am actually 10 lbs. away from my ultimate goal. It has been a long road. I haven’t felt this excited and empowered in a long time.

Yesterday my husband and I went through some old pictures from past vacations and family events. Many of them (well all of them) were from a time when I was overweight, unhappy with how I looked and was feeling that I was digging myself deeper and deeper into the fat hole and had no way out. I remember those times so well.

I was reminded of the times when people felt they had the right to make comments , some subtle, some not so much, about my weight gain. I was not overweight all my life. I was always tall and thin growing up and into my mid-tthirties, then something changed. I remember a time when I wore jeans to work for a casual day. (I wear shapeless scubs usually). A girl came up to me and said, “wow, you are alot heavier than I thought you were”. Needless to say, I never wore jeans to work again. Another time I was on vacation with my now mother in law, and my now husband. We were ina restraunt having dinner and my mother inlaw looked at me from across the table and said, “You eat a lot , huh?”. I was horrified. So many, many comments I could go on and on.

The old pictures brought up a lot of painful memeories. But the fact that I was looking at them in the past tense was weird. I guess it is time to let go of all that pain and all that frustration and move forward. I have decided to do this by working on putting together a series of before and after pics. It will be a good way to celebrate the changes and move to the next chapter.

I am not sure when this will be ready for actual post, I still have insecurities in doing it, but I am definately going to do it because I feel it is an important part of this tranformation. What I am finding, surprisingly enough, is that this whole weight loss thing is so much more than going from fat to skinny. It changes you emotionally, and it changes the person you thought you were. It is growth in every sense of the word.

I am looking forward to the week ahead. I start a new Turbulence Training workout. It is different from the ones I’ve been doing and I can’t wait to try it. I am also excited to be back on the treadmill again because I’ve really missed it. I have my food all ready and planned out, and I am ready to get going and really work hard this week. Saturday’s weight loss has really given me motivation.

So onward…………Have a great week !

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First Sign Of Spring

Posted by Susan on March 23, 2009

A tiny little sign of spring ! I found it in my yard yesterday. So pretty , isn’t it? It is hard to beleive it is spring already, especially when it is FREEEZING outside today ! When i see the little signs, like this little purple flower, it gives me hope that warm weather is really going to happen ! I love all the seasons, but I am ready for some warm weather. I am ready to work out in the yard, I am ready to sit out on the deck and eat dinner. And for the first time this year I think I may be ready to go to the lake we live on !!!!! That is exciting ! I have lived here for 2 summers and I’ve never been down there in a swim suit ! Will this be the summer?……stay tuned !

This weekend I had a chance to catch up on all my favorite blogs. One in particular made me think. It was about how life had changed since blogging. I can relate to a lot of what the author wrote. It was a really well written, honest post , and it really got me thinking.

I began thinking about my jouney and what blogging has added to it. In my case I beleive that reading blogs has helped me. One blog especially has given me so much inspiration and motivation. Writing my blog has helped me feel like I have a place to rant, to celebrate victories and cry about my defeats. I don’t think anyone actually reads my blog, I write it more for myself than anything else. I try to stay honest, and I try not to censor my feelings, but I do try too keep it positve. I have enough negative self talk floating around in my brain most of the time, I like to try to counteract that with some positive writing.

As far as being obsessed with food…….I had to think long and hard on that one. I am obsessed to a point. I write down every morsal of food I put in my mouth, look up calories, when I am going out to eat I have to know where I am going, I scour online menus trying to find things I can eat without totally blowing it. I even have on occasion said no to invites where I knew the temptations would be too great. If I had to be completely honest, I would have to admit yes……that is definately obsessive.

My workout routine is somewhat obsessive as well. I do it every morning, I go to bed super early so that I am able to get up early enough to get the workout in, I’ve made it a habit, and a must. I will also turn down invites if I feel like it will interfere with them getting done. Obsessive.

On the other side of the cion, and this is my opinion as it applys to me, these practices, this obsession has definately brought me results. I beleive that not eating mindfully, not knowing how many calories I was eating, was the entire reason I weighed 210 lbs. I feel that I was out of control, I was kidding myself. I feel like I was not doing the work. Nothing is easy….especially weight loss. I feel like I need to keep track of my food intake and my exercise to ensure my sucess.

Being 210 lbs. was a nightmare for me. I am 5’9 and all my life I was thin. Suddenly I hit my mid thirties and all that changed. I was in denial. I would not admit I was overweight till the number 210 slapped me in the face. I kept saying I would fix it, I would lose it all…..but instead I just kept getting deeper and deeper into it.

Right now I am in the best place I’ve been in in years. I can see some of the old me peeking through. My husband didn’t even know me in my “skinny days”. He met me as I was on the steady climb up the pound ladder. Thankfully he loved me regardless….but even that didn’t make me feel better. I felt for the first time in my life totally invisible. I felt ugly, I felt like people though I was lazy and sloppy. I never want to go back to that place again.

I know that being obsessed with anything is not a great thing. But for now, I like to think of it as being focused on my goal. I don’t ever want to eat mindlessly again. I don’t ever want to get out of the exercise habit. I don’t ever want to binge eat loads of crap. Eventually I feel that when I’ve reached my goal and I am maintaining, I will find a balence with eating and exercising. In fact that will be one of my main goals while maintaining. But for now, I will just stay obsessed (focused), because for now it works for me.

As for blog reading, I think I always will. How else do you find excellent posts, thought provoking insights, motivation and inspiration, when you are not always surrounded by like minded people working tword the same goals?

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A New Week Ahead………………..

Posted by Susan on March 8, 2009

Here it is Sunday again, and that feeling of a new week, a new start. A clean slate. I am excited that my knee is back to normal and I will be able to resume my AM workouts, I really missed them. My number one goal for this week is to be in the 150’s (pounds) by Saturday’s weigh-in. I don’t care if I am 159 ! I just want to see something , anything in the 50’s.
I am toying with possibly adding some outdoor activity into my program a few days a week. The weather is getting better, the time has changed so it is lighter later, I am thinking it would be nice to do some power walking some days after work. I am thinking about it. As the days get warmer, the whole idea will becomes more and more attractive.
This week will be the usual, working out every morning, curcuits and HIIT on the bike 3 days, cardio 3 days. Tracking all of my calories, keeping within a 1200-1500 range, IF 2 days this week. There are no celebrations this week until Saturday. It is my niece’s birthday, and we are having a family party here. I am making a cake for her (pink) and we are having pizza. I will plan pizza into my calorie count for the day, and hopefully I will not have a panic attack about it like this week. The one good thing about it is the party falls on my weigh-in day, and usually that adds to my motivation ! I see the scale, and especially if it is a good number, I get some extra determination to make sure I keep the calories down. Also having the party at my house, I will have to play hostess, and that will keep me out of the food……..I hope. Anyway, I will cross that bridge when I come to it.
I am looking forward to the coming week, injury free ! I am feeling really positive about things and I planning on really working hard this week. I want to enter 150’s this week !!!!! It’s been….God I can’t even remember the last time I was in the 150’s…….before my niece was born….over 8 yrs. ago. WOW ! That will definately be cause to celebrate huh?

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