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I Love Fridays !

Posted by Susan on August 8, 2009

I am the happiest human being on the face of the earth come Friday at 3:30 pm ! I came home from work and Matt and I went to BJ’s Whole Sale and did some shopping. We just got the membership so we were pretty much just feeling the place out, and seeing what they had. I found a ton of great stuff I will be buying in the future !

Then we went over to Big Lot’s where I made a killing on healthy breakfast options for CHEAP ! I bought Fiber One Cereal , Zoe’s Granola, Kashi Granola, all to add to my oatmeal. Cereal, especially healthy stuff is really expensive ! When I get it for $2.00 a box I feel like I’ve really made a major score. We didn’t make it home till almost 8:30 pm , and I finally had dinner just a few minutes ago.

I had an Annie’s Organic Burrito , my favorite Friday night treat. Right now I am stuffed and ready for a shower and to watch some of the shows I DVR’ed during the week, and catch up on some blog reading before hitting the sack !

Tomorrow is supposed to be a beautiful day! ( that makes 3 days in a row !) The plan is regular food shopping in the morning , then out to breakfast. After that I am heading down to the beach again with my Favorite 8 yr. Old ! I have to fit in as much sun and lake time as I can before the summer is over.

The last week of the month I have a 4 day weekend scheduled. (Fri. , Sat. , Sun. , and Mon. ) By then all the kids in the neighborhood will be back at school. The kids in my town go back to school August 26th. I plan on ending the summer with a four day beach weekend , weather permitting that is !

For the first time in too many years to remember, I will be sad to see the summer come to an end. This is the first summer I didn’t have to walk around trying to cover up fat and stay cool. The first summer I felt confident enough to wear a bathing suit in public. The first summer that I didn’t have to agonize over what I would wear to social functions. It felt so liberating ! I hate having limits set on myself, and especially limits that I set on myself.

The summer has opened so many new doors for me !We began hiking again, I got a bike and we started doing that on weekends. I participated more socially than I ever have before. I really feel like I’ve broken out of a shell.

Weight loss is so much more than numbers slowly lowering on the scale. It gives you the satisfaction of knowing you can do whatever you set your mind to. It gives you a different outlook on who you are. It even gives you the freedom to accept yourself as you are , and make the most of what you have.

I can honestly say this has been one of the best summers of my life, as far as personal satisfaction goes. I feel like I am ready to make more changes in my life, set new goals for myself, to try new things , take a few more risks, and just enjoy with out that self conscious feeling that comes with being unhappy with what you look like.

So although this summer may be ending , there are so many wonderful new things ahead, I am excited to see what is next !

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Weekly Weigh In : 137.6 lbs.

Posted by Susan on June 13, 2009

My weigh in today has me confused. I never thought I would say this but I am still losing and that has me a little concerned. This morning I weighed in at 137.6. Not that I don’t like this number, because I do ! I just need to stop losing now.

I am 5’9″ tall . I had no intention of going into the 130’s at all. I must say I am liking the fact that I am begining to see some muscle definition due to the fact that there is a lot less fat covering the mucle now. But I do beleive there is such a thing as too skinny!

Wow ! I never in my wildest dreams thought I would be worried about a weigh in that is too low ! All these years of worrying about how high the number on the scale was………now I am stressing over how low it is ???

I had a long talk the other day with the dietitian at work. (you remember, the one I never listened to?) I wanted to thank her for the great advice she gave me last year. We got to talking about how to maintain. She told me she beleives I should be eating at least 2000 calories a day ! What ???? I almost fell off my chair ! That seems like such a high number !!! As it is , it has been really hard this week trying to eat 1700-1800. She explained that with the circuit training /HIIT that I do plus my very active job, I need to eat more. She said that if I cut back on the exercise I would need less.

Well, I love my workouts. They are quick, easy , and for me , the workouts have become a mental thing. They help me keep my head at work, they help keep my mood steady and they help tremendously in the management of stress. I do not want to cut them back.

This week I will experiment with the 2000 calorie thing, because I don’t want to lose anymore weight , I just want to stay right where I am. I just need to get over that paranoid feeling as I see the total number of calories climb higher !

The most difficult thing about maintaining is switching my mind out of diet mode ! I have been on some kind of diet for what seems like my entire life on and off. Turning it off , I am finding, is is extrememly hard ! I worry that I will slip back into bad habits, I worry that if I get out of the “zone” I will end up right back where I began.

I will make an effort to get myself up to 2000 calories this week. I need to experiment with it and see what happens at the end of the week next week.

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Unfounded Fears and a Good Night’s Sleep !

Posted by Susan on June 9, 2009

I am happy to report that the scale this morning showed that I am still right on target. (139.4 lbs.) My little panic yesterday turned out to be unnecessary. I guess I am going to have to deal with my fears for a while , until I get myself to a point where I am comfortable with maintaining my weight. My logic hasn’t caught up to my emeotions as of yet. I hope it gets better, but what do I expect ? It is only mid way through week 2.

Today at work a friend (who had Gastric Bypass 3 years ago , and who is has had trouble with weight gain lately) came to me in tears. It seems that 2 of the girls from another dept. called her out on her recent weight gain. They told her she was gaining weight, and that she needs to watch herself before it gets out of hand and she gains back all the weight she lost ! I felt horrible for her (I’ve been the recipient of such criticism before) and tried my best to console her. In her state of upset, she even told me that when I start gaining back the weight I lost ( NO HAPPENING !) , see how I feel !

Anyway that is not what this post is about. The question I have is, why is it that people feel the need to offer their opinions when you don’t ask for it ?! Especially when it comes to weight ! I don’t get it. Is it that people just don’t think before they open their mouths? Or is it that people are that thoughtless and unfeeling? Since I understand the emotional pain that goes with weight, I would never ever think to mention to someone that they are gaining . Even if it is meant as help………….it really isn’t any help at all !

Honestly you can’t win anyway ! I got the comments on my weight when I was fat, and now I get them now that I am not ! Someone today asked me if I’d lost weight, when I said yes I did, they started with the “don’t you think your a bit too thin?”stuff !

I would love to go on and on about not caring what others thing, but I am not that evolved yet ! Weight loss doesn’t instanly make insecurities go away. I still have a ton of work to do on myself in that direction. All I know is that when your feeling badlt about how you look, you don’t need anyone to remind you of what you already know !

Ok, enough ranting for one night. I promised myself that tonight would be a full 8 hours of sleep, so I best get cracking ! The late nights of vacation on definately messed my sleeping patterns up. Have a great tomorrow everyone !

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Thank you ! Thank You ! Thank You ! and A Promise I Made To Myself

Posted by Susan on June 5, 2009

First off I want to say thank you so much for the comments you guys left on yesterday’s blog post. I cannot tell you how much they meant to me …… As wonderful and supportive as my husband and sister have been through out my weight loss, they don’t really “get it” like you guys do ! Thanks for sharing my joy and understanding my fears ! I am still reeling from yesterday !

Last Saturday , when I reached my goal weight I was reminded of a promise I made to myself a long time ago, when I was at my all time heaviset weight. I swore to myself that I would take more pride in my appearence.

When I was fat I gave up on myself pretty much. I always wore make up to work, but doing my hair usually consisted of throwing my wet hair into a ponytail. If it was a day off , I would do nothing ! No make up , dressed like a slob for the most part. I was even known to go food shopping in my PJ’s on a Sunday morning ! I am ashamed to admit that I even went to family functions in sweats and just rolled out of bed hair !

I figured what was the point ! It was like putting fancy wrapping paper on a broken gift ! I had myself convinced that I did not care . I distictly remember telling myself that as soon as I lost the weight I would get myself together.

As the weight started coming off I got a little better. I did something with my hair, I tried a little harder, but I still had that inner voice inside tellling me it just wasn’t worth it.

Last week I decided that it was time. I promised I would make an effort, and with the time off this week it was the perfect opportunity to make the change ! The pic above was the first day of our vacation and I was determined not to go out looking like I didn’t care. I did my hair and my make up……….I tried to dress cute………..but it was so flippen’ cold outside I ended up in the hoodie anyway !!!!!

But each day I have been taking the time to try. I knew we had plans for the day and I put in the effort to look decent. I am not sure how my huband feels about it, he is doing a lot more standing around waiting for me ! But he hasn’t complained. (yet !)

I guess what happend when I gained the weight was that I lost myself underneath it. I didn’t feel that I was worth it. Or maybe I felt like I didn’t deserve it.

Here is a picture from Christmas a few years ago. Notice the sweats and sloppy sweat shirt, not to mention the bed head on the girl standing next to Santa.

Again in my typical outfit !

I was so sad then. That’s why I made the promise to myself. And that’s why I am trying to make good on it !

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Saturday Morning Weigh In :

Posted by Susan on May 23, 2009

Wow ! I am so close I can almost taste it !!!!!!! I am a little more than 2 pounds away from my goal weight !!!!! A part of me is estatic, another part of me is shocked, and still another part of me is scared to death of the hit or miss challenge of maintaining this weight loss long term !

I was hoping that I would be at goal wieght by my 2nd Wedding Anniversary , the first week of June. We are off that week and it would be nice to be in maintainance mode by then. I thought it was a long shot, but now I am not so sure ……. it may be a possibility. I guess we shall see.

I added extra exercise to my life the past few weeks in the form of both SS and HIIT. I do some form of HIIT every day , either on the spin bike or the treadmill for 30 min. I also added extra SS cardio on Saturday mornings and Hiking on Sundays. It seems to be helping the scale move toward my goal.

I also added some extra calories to my diet . That is the biggest fear I have about maintaining. Adding calories ! I have a really strong “diet” mind set and now I have to relax it a bit ( not too much though! ) . I know that as long as I keep working out I will be able to eat more, but the thought of adding calories is scarey. I read somewhere to add 200 calories every 2 weeks. I am supposed to need a little over 2000 calories to maintain 140 lbs. that seems like a lot but if you think about it it really isn’t , I guess. I am active and plan to keep up the activity indefinately . I have that ingrained in my head right now! Keeping up the wokouts is the price I have to pay to keep the weight off. One hour a day , that’s all. Everything in life comes with a price , and working out is my price. That’s all there is to it ! Here are my stats for this week :

Weight : 142.6 ( 2.4 lb. Loss )

Fat % : 30.7 (1. Loss )

BMI : 21.2 (o.4 Loss )

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Today was the day !

Posted by Susan on May 22, 2009

I know this is going to sound completely insane , but I agonized much of last night about this whole Casual Friday thing at work, all night last night ! I mean I tried on clothes , tried them on again , and tried them on yet AGAIN before going to sleep ! Crazy right? I’d pretty much decided that I was not ready for my “big reveal” at work quite yet and I would wait on it for now.

This morning while I was on the treadmill doing my interval training I said to myself……Oh what the heck ! Just do it ! What is the worst that can happen?????? Well, I’d already had the worst happen……8 years ago I wore jeans to work and was told by one of my co-workers I looked alot bigger in jeans than she thought I would ! Nothing could compare to that horror show !

So I got dressed in my jeans (goal jeans that is), and wore a simple t-shirt, ( we were having a Memorial Day picnic today) and sneakers and just got in the car and went ! Ok well, I was sweating on the way, stomach in knots, almost afraid to get out of the car , but I did it anyway !

I walked in and one of the night nurses on duty said to me……wow you are skinny ! That set the tone for the entire day ! People noticed and complimented, congratulated, and some even asked me what I did to lose the weight. When you wear big baggy srcubs everyday, no one can really tell what your body looks like under them. It felt good to be able to say I worked really hard for it ! Because I did !

In my head I know that I don’t need any validation for the hard work I’ve done , but I won’t lie ! It felt great to have it anyway ! It may have been silly to be so nervous about showing off all my hard work and effort , but sometimes I wonder if my eyes really see what is there. I was so afraid that I didn’t look like I thought I did and that I would look foolish !

It was a nice day for me. It helps keep me motivated , and I think I may have helped inspire some people along the way. Some of my co-workers expressed an interest in getting into working out , watching portion sizes, and counting calories. That would be pretty neat to be able to make a difference in someone’s life , I think !

So, needless to say ,I accomplished one of my (silly) goals of finally wearing jeans to work on casual Friday ! And I faced a fear . As stupid as it may sound, I was really scared this morning ! I am glad I didn’t give in to it and took a risk !

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Weekly Weigh In :

Posted by Susan on May 16, 2009

Today is a big day for me . It marks the lowest weight I have been in over 8 years of dieting and working out ! I could not believe the number my eyes were seeing this morning ! I am so happy , but I am also almost in shock ! I guess the extra cardio I’ve added on the weekends is definately paying off . I’ve also added about 100 calories to my diet and that seems to have made the scale start to move again .

I am offically 5lbs away from my goal weight of 140 lbs . I can’t believe that I will be at my goal (hopefully) by summer ! I am completely amazed ! I have wanted this for so long and here it is, 5 small pounds away !!!!!

Here are my stats for this week :

Weight : 145.0 lbs. ( 2.6 lb. Loss !!!! )
Fat % : 31.8 ( 0.7 Loss )
BMI : 21.6 (0.4 Loss )

I am definately feeling motivated ! Off to do my Saturday morning Cardio !!!!

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We Couldn’t Wait !

Posted by Susan on May 13, 2009

My husband Matt and I celebrate our 2 year Wedding Anniversary on June 2nd. We took the week of that date off from work to spend together . We have a whole lot planned and it will be so nice not be together ! I can’t wait !

I told Matt what I wanted as an anniversary gift and I knew he got it ! I wanted to get him something that he would like without asking him what he wanted . I ordered his and it came on Tues. night .

The excitement of knowing he had mine hidden somewhere , and knowing I finally had my gift ready for him got too much for me ! I talked him into exchanging gifts early (about 3 weeks early ! ) !! The suspense was just too much for me ! It took some persuading but he finally agreed .

The top picture is my gift ! A new camera that takes awsome pics ! Out old one stunk for blogging but this one is the best ! The photos above are the last stinky pictures this blog will be seeing ! I can’t wait to start using it tomorrow .

I got Matt a Wii Fit ! Matt is the best guy in the entire world and I love him more than anything …….but ……. although he is my biggest suporter during the ups and downs of this weight loss journey, he has no interest in exercise . I got him back into hiking , and we are even looking into bikes to ride together . Since he is a huge, HUGE , video game freak , I thought this would be a great way to get him to move a little more and who knows ? Maybe he this ” game” could help cultivate an interest in other sorts of exercise options for him . I consider it a decent start ! Because you win points for doing the exercises , I think the gamer in him feels compelled to do it all the more ! So far (keeping my fingers crossed ) , he has been coming home from work and doing it first thing . I am really happy ! I don’t care what he looks like physically , my big concern is for his health so anything that will keep him moving is worth it for me . For the first time I think I surprised him with this one . He had no clue !

I am glad he let me talk him into our early gift exchange ! And I can’t wait to take photos of everything in site ! the camera is great !

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Weekly Weigh In :

Posted by Susan on May 9, 2009

I am happy with today’s weigh in . I lost 1.4 lbs. !!! That makes me 6.6 lbs away from my Ultimate Goal Weight !!!! I have never ever been this close to my goal weight ever . I am excited . I have a full day planned , but I am going to squeeze some extra cardio into today somehow . I am really motivated now .

I upped my calories this week by alittle this week with the hopes it would make the scale move , I am not sure if that is what helped this week’s weigh in . I also did an extra day of cardio . Maybe it was the combination of the two , or maybe it just happened . Whatever the reason I am happy with it ! I was hoping to be maintaining by the first week in June when my husband and I are off for the week . I am not sure that will happen , but I am sure it will be soon after . The thought of maintaining my weight loss scares me to death ! I am sure it is about balence , smart eating , and planning . I think ( hope ) I am up for it !

This weekend is a busy one , as always . So many things I want to get done ! Hopefully I will get to it all !

Here are my stats for this week :

Weight : 147.6 ( 1.4 lb. loss ! )

Fat % : 32.5 (0.6 loss )

BMI : 22.0 ( 0.2 loss )

*** I did an extra 60 min. of cardio this morning ! Got it out of the way !

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Weekly Weigh In :

Posted by Susan on May 2, 2009

I am trying so hard not to be disappointed this week , but it is soooooo hard ! I feel kind of pissed off to be honest ! I worked my butt off this week . I was literally active all week . My eating was perfect , I pushed myself during every single workout , and even on my Rest Day I was very active . But I still had only a 0.6 lb. loss !!! UGH!
Now there is the realistic side of me that knows this is normal . I am 8 lbs. away from my goal weight . I know that my body is going to hold on to these last few pounds for dear life ! I also know that a loss is still a loss, and I should be happy with it . I feel the difference in my body , I am definately losing inches , and at least I am moving (a little ) and not gaining !
I still can’t help feeling a little miffed ! What I know , and how I feel are definately NOT on the same page . Anyway, here are my progress stats for this week :
Weight : 149 .0 ( = 0.6 lb. Loss )
Fat % : 33.1 ( = 0.3 % Loss )
BMI : 22.2 ( = 0.1 Loss )
I need to snap out of this feeling of disappointment and just move forward , and I will …….. eventually ! I need to focus on how far I’ve come and remind myself that I still made progess , even if it was small .

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